doing worse than prelims was probably the biggest nightmare i've had in the longest time.
and ohwell i did do worse than prelims.
cried my eyes out, slept and ate.
after that, i stared at my results slip and realised it was pretty funny and ironic.
14 points.
with all the grades swopped around.
my best subjects became my worst, and my worst became my best.
its so funny but so tragic at the same time.
oh good grief.
but you know what?
i don't feel so lousy bout it anymore.
what im thinking about now, is all the changes that's gonna occur in acjc.

plus, i think this damn olevel results is a bloody wakeupcall man.
i should stop skipping lectures and ponning school.
i should WORK PRETTY DAMN HAAAAAAAAARD.
bloody a levels.
stupid o's.
grRrr.

and B3 for ENGLISH!!!!
wAaaah!
i've never gotten a B3 for english in my life! in fact i've never even gotten an A2!
so.. how did this happen?!
STUPID OLEVELS STUPID OLEVELS STUPID OLEVELS.
ohwell.
i guess my english isn't that good :( hurts to think i've been disillusioned all this while.
doesn't help with the sudden fantastic grades in physics, cause i hate physics and it has been my worst subject all.. my life.

hmm.
i guess it just never occured to me that my consistently lousy grades would actually fall upon me during my olevels.
o's always seemed like a dream. it's the point of time, where you've studied all you need to know and all you have to do, is take one much-easier-than-prelims paper, and you somehow wish or take for granted with a teensy part of your heart that your grade would be a good one.
it just never occured to me that i would open my results slip and see a worse-than-prelim grade.
it just never occured to me that all the while, the subjects that were my strongest, would fail me.
it just never occured to me that the subjects i hated the most would produce a's.
it just made me realise, i have to work for my grades.
why?
i hated emath, amath and physics with a vengeance cause i was so bad at it.
and cause i was so bad at it, i worked at it. well for math that is. and it paid off.
physics was just a bloody miracle cause i don't ever remembering working for that.
i guess my brain was just working doubly effectively that day.

but WHY couldn't these effective brain juices work for my other subjects?
like my three best?! english combined and chem?! WHYWHYWHY!
this whole olevel's issue is a why issue.
anyway i shuold stop grouching.
i sound like a real sore scorer.
which i am.
ha ha.
anyway someone help me with the registration please.
are we supposed to do it online? or in school? i have no clue.
and i really hope i don't have to appeal.