stress is something i'd never truly felt, but now i feel stressed. stressed over nothing.
or perhaps i'm stressed over the mother and the father who won't stop putting the pressure on me to read the newspapers everyday, enrich my brain with articles from magazines like newsweek and the economist, putting my brain into gear for math by practising everyday and being prepared by reading my econs notes ahead of lesson.
the thing is, i don't want to do these things.
my brain tells me i should, but my body just doesn't do it.
and besides with them pushing the pressure button, the more i don't feel like doing it.

and besides, how do i know i'm stressed?
i've been shopping. the only stress reliever for singaporeans is shopping.
reading doesn't help, because you'll have mothers and fathers hounding you to put that trashy book DOWN and spend time productively reading the economist.
playing sport doesn't help, because you have coaches and teachers bugging you to run run run even more than you should.
going online doesn't help, because again you have the M and the F bugging you to get off NOW.
same goes for tv.
the only way is shopping.
even though you have the mother and the father yelling at you to stop spending money, at least you have something nice in your possession.

so right now i have lovely bowed ballet pumps with a kitten heel and a white tshirt :)