ohwell chinese o's came out today. was really hoping for an a2 partly cos i wanted an a2 and also cos my mother insisted i'd have to retake if i got b3 and below. but weell.. jes as i'd expected (not hoped), i got a b3. i shouldnt have been surprised cos truthfully that was what i was expecting, but when i saw that 3 and the M in a bracket beside it my heart jes collapsed. i felt a wave of disappointment hit me and i spent quite a while asking myself why i felt like crying (which i did.. ugh!!) and why did i feel so disappointed when i knew in my heart that was my standard. tsktsk awaay with disappointments.
so talked to my mother jes now and she's agreed to me not retaking the chinese exam but it jes made me realise i have to work doubly hard for my other subjects. there's no way i can count physics into my L1R5 because i have absolutely no apt for it. and i started to feel terrified because when i really got down to thinking about my subjects, i realised i dont really have anything to count on! not because i suck at all my subjects but because i'm not good at all my subjects. get my drift? im not bad at any of my subjects, but im not excellent in any of them.
my english is pretty allright but im really terrified that something might happen and i wont get my a1 and if i get anything lower than an a1 i'll cry.. i'll really cry. and there's lit which i have to get an a1 for. but lately my lit's been rather shaky so its quite worrying if im gonna get an a2 for o's/prelims and God forbid, a b3 and below. and there's my emath which used to SUCK big time but it's been coming up so well.. for math jes gotta PRACTISE PRACTISE PRACTISE. mmhmm. and there's err chem. im not a very science-apt student but considering i've got miss goh and if i mug reaaal hard i'll hopefully scrape an a1?? and uhh i've covered the four main subs.. then there's ss/halfgeog which i've got to hit an a1 too. and finally amath. im hoping for a1 but amath has all these tricky questions and so far i've managed an a2. so counting my hypothetical points.. i've got 7 points which is the lowest i can go. highest i can go will range from anything. even until 30 pts im sure of it. and judging by the kind of person i am.. who's okay at all my subs but not excellent.. i wont be surprised if i get 6a2s. which i will cry i tell you. i'll SOB.
talking about this is depressing. but im gonna treat it as motivation to work. gosh .. i mean its my future man. scary thinking of it this way. ohweell.. but il treat this b3 as a push factor to work harder.
if you never lose, you never learn to want to win. how true huh? bear that in mind..
so talked to my mother jes now and she's agreed to me not retaking the chinese exam but it jes made me realise i have to work doubly hard for my other subjects. there's no way i can count physics into my L1R5 because i have absolutely no apt for it. and i started to feel terrified because when i really got down to thinking about my subjects, i realised i dont really have anything to count on! not because i suck at all my subjects but because i'm not good at all my subjects. get my drift? im not bad at any of my subjects, but im not excellent in any of them.
my english is pretty allright but im really terrified that something might happen and i wont get my a1 and if i get anything lower than an a1 i'll cry.. i'll really cry. and there's lit which i have to get an a1 for. but lately my lit's been rather shaky so its quite worrying if im gonna get an a2 for o's/prelims and God forbid, a b3 and below. and there's my emath which used to SUCK big time but it's been coming up so well.. for math jes gotta PRACTISE PRACTISE PRACTISE. mmhmm. and there's err chem. im not a very science-apt student but considering i've got miss goh and if i mug reaaal hard i'll hopefully scrape an a1?? and uhh i've covered the four main subs.. then there's ss/halfgeog which i've got to hit an a1 too. and finally amath. im hoping for a1 but amath has all these tricky questions and so far i've managed an a2. so counting my hypothetical points.. i've got 7 points which is the lowest i can go. highest i can go will range from anything. even until 30 pts im sure of it. and judging by the kind of person i am.. who's okay at all my subs but not excellent.. i wont be surprised if i get 6a2s. which i will cry i tell you. i'll SOB.
talking about this is depressing. but im gonna treat it as motivation to work. gosh .. i mean its my future man. scary thinking of it this way. ohweell.. but il treat this b3 as a push factor to work harder.
if you never lose, you never learn to want to win. how true huh? bear that in mind..
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