pms pangs have hit again.
at least that's what i think, cause today is the lowest i've felt all year. i think i even felt a twinge of the 'sec3depressionthing' and it scared me to bits because now that i've escaped all that nasty hurt and constricting pain, it seems like a dream (a bad one mindyou) and i have no desire to feel that way ever again.

highly irritated with my class i wanna transfer OUT!!
got into major trouble today. guess its our fault.
but.. back on to my class.. i think they're all incredibly nice people, but i just don't feel on the same wavelength as them. i have nothing to say and its tiring having a guard up all the time.

i think this is what i fear.
i fear loneliness.
alot. i fear insecurity.
i fear..
this is so stupid. i can't even construct intelligent sounding sentences. im in a real bad mood.
the best part of today was training. imagine that.
but i think i'm starting to enjoy training again. its a really good medium for release.
now i know why i trained so hard in the past.
its cause when im training i dont have to concentrate on anything else other then whatever i'm doing. and after working up a good sweat, i feel pretty good.

anyway heres a soundbite, i think most people are diametrically opposed.
except when it comes to weight.
i dont feel like going into it cause its gonna trigger all those argumentative and conflicting comments in the guestbook which feel inclined to answer, knowing full well i don't have a good one too.
so i'll leave it as that.
PEOPLE ARE DIAMETRICALLY OPPOSED.
go figure what i mean.
i can't be bothered to tell you.