sometimes i really wonder why do i get teased all the time.
its been apparant since primary school, all the way to secondary school, and its even evident now. is it my face? or what i say or am i just so damn stupid its so fun to tease.

i dont think i really mind people teasing me cause i've got a pretty high tolerance level for that. but sometimes, it just makes me wonder, am i really just that to people? a jackass? a punching bag? i'd really like to believe i'm more that just that.

it's just got me wondering and thinking whether my self worth is really that little. do people just see me as a joke? something to laugh at, make fun of. it doesnt make me feel like a real person. more like a clown. i guess everyone wants to feel like a real person, with real feelings and real humanitarian qualities. but lately, i really feel like a mechanical clown.

yes, like wind me up, laugh laugh laugh, and all i have to do is laugh laugh laugh and when the fun is over lets stop. then the next day its the same thing happening all over..

and thanks gab. yes you are the nicest to me out of the lot. i shall you treat you better than the rest.