these are the few things i hate at the moment.

i hate having my life rearranged.
rearranged without me initiating it, but instead rearranged on its own accord.
it is very unsettling; shifting my comfort zone.

and i hate expectations, but yet i expect.
and i hate the way expectations don't meet up.

i hate loneliness.
i hate the way i have people around me, but yet it feels there aren't any.

i hate not knowing what i used to know.
it makes me feel stupid, confused and bewildered.
it makes me disappointed; in myself and the people around me.

i hate change.
when i say change, i mean bad changes.
changes that turn my life around, upside down and pulled in all directions possible.
small bad changes, big bad changes, i hate them all.

i hate not respecting my friends.
and i can't think of anything to elaborate on them because i can't explain it.

and i hate myself.
i hate myself for hating things.

and here are the few things that i love at the moment. or today.

i love shopping with fiona (talking is included too).
the way i manage to snag good buys with her and have a good time altogether.
the way i can say just about anything and the way i can not say anything and it doesnt seem the slightest bit wrong.
i love fiona.

i love talking to michelle (ok shopping is included too).
she always listens and more or less agrees with me and she talks pretty much and is rather entertaining too.
she's a great pal.
i love her too.

i love my korean drama.
because i don't have to think about the things i hate.
and daft as this sounds, i have another life to live although technically i'm not really living.

and i love being with my family.
no matter how annoying they are or i am, or how awful they make me feel or i make them feel, at the end of the day, they're the ones who are truly with me through everything.

evidently, i hate more things than i love.
which means i'm not in a very peachy mood.