don't it always seem to go
that you don't know what you've got til it's gone

that song's been playing in my head over and over.
and my sister left this morning :(
strange how i never really used to miss her, but now the house seems eerily empty.
there used to be the little background chatter between my mother and my sis, or even if they never said anything, the silence would be periodically interrupted by my sister yelling "shumin!" or "mummy!" over one thing or another.
the silence is one thing.
the presence is another.
i even miss seeing my sister sprawled across her bed sleeping like she always does in the afternoon.
or her daily dose of internet shopping where she'd show me all the things she'd want to buy.

all that aside, i watched Stairway to Heaven again to fill up the empty morning.
stupid lovely show reduced me to a blubbering fool yet again.
GAAAAH everyone should go watch it.
and beat up the step-mother.
i used to make random rubbish comments whenever i watched it with my sis.
now.. i'll have to keep my comments to myself.

it is a very sad wednesday.
and i didn't even get to say goodbye this morning because DUMB ME COULDN'T GET UP!
i think my mother is verrrrryvery sad.
she's very attached to my sis.

and i am not talking properly.