church camp was good in a really special way.
a way i never expected but i certainly learnt alot of things along the way.

like karen said, we're all so self-centred.
it's always about ME, US, how WE feel, how God makes US feel; that perhaps we forget the reason why God created us: to glorify Him and spread His word.

we're put on this earth for a reason, a purpose.
and we're forever waiting.
we're always waiting for something.
in primary school, we wait for secondary school.
in secondary school, we wait for jc.
in jc, we wait for university.
and we're always looking ahead at these prominent markers in our lives which supposedly craft our future, that we forget about the present.
God put us in a particular family, school and situation for a reason.
but most of the time, we're always looking ahead that we simply forget the people around us and what we're capable of doing through Him.

it struck me that perhaps now i'm in the necessary place.
and i haven't been taking the necessary steps for doing what i'm called to do.
to let go of my ashes and listen and do what He wants me to do.

but of course it's not easy.
we're always fearful.
i'm always fearful.
i fear that people will look at me funny.
i fear rejection.
i fear MYSELF - that i lack the faith and courage to commit.
but with God, whom shall i fear?

and last of all, i really thank God for my small group, especially yasmine.
she's done so much for us, prayed for us and seen us grow as Christians for over a year now.
and through this camp, i'm really thankful too for friends like lesley shuling cass and kren.
MAY WE ALWAYS BE ON FIRE FOR THE LORD AND NEVER BURN OUT BECAUSE HE IS OUR EVERLASTING GOD WHOM WE LOVE :)

ohwell ogl camp tomorrow.
I GET TO SEE MICHELLEEE!
and we're in matt's clan so should be preeeeetty good.