okay so i suppose i'm feeling abit better.
although i'm still harbouring very petty thoughts that make me feel supremely childish but yet totally in the right.
which is a yes no yes no, i cannot make up my mind!

and you see such extreme fluctuations in mood has led me to consider some very rash course of action.
which in my mind seemed very logical and mature at that point of time, but now that i'm scrabbling out of this attention-deprived abyss, i know, and i repeat, I KNOW, i will live to regret it.

and i'm trying very hard to blog in such a way so that i can
a) express myself to let out that steeeeeeeeam.
b) not let everyone know what i'm talking about
but
c) still remember what i was talking about in this post when i look back on it in say about two months on.

oh gosh i am feeling fruuuuustraaaaaatedd.
like its bubbling to the tip of my mouth so i have a strong urge to say something bold, audacious, that will change my life, just so i can let out steam!
but it is so. not. worth. it.

and i don't make much sense.
because i never think sense.

and oh noo i think i'm going abit crazy..
:(