grumpiness because today the ktv gang is out for a grrreat exhilarating long-awaited session of ktv AND Initial D.
and i'm home.
:(

last year, i had tickets for the jaychou concert (sooo near the front!) but then i couldn't go cos i had to fly to the states for a holiday.
so i missed jay.
this year, i was so looking forward to watching Initial D, and i can't go.
so again, i missed jay.

whatsup. with. that?

anyway i had a damn queer dream last night and i woke up feeling like a sportswoman(?).
don't ask me why, i just did!
and my dream had nothing to do with sports.

i dreamt i was watching a movie with my 'boyfriend' (he was completely faceless by the way) and when we took our seats, the woman next to me kept whispering to her friend and jabbing her finger at me; all in a very blatant fashion.
and i was feeling so disconcerted, and she wouldn't stop pointing at me!
so i whispered (i don't know why i was whispering) STOP IT!
and she shrieked SHE'S GOING TO KISS HER BOYFRIEND!
and i was like no! i'm not going to kiss my boyfriend! NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS, anyway!
after that she wouldn't stop gesticulating and talking, but for some reason, it was suddenly as though everything was on mute and i couldn't hear a thing.

then all of a sudden i was on a beach and this guy and girl whom i've never met before came up to me and we started playing volleyball.
halfway while playing volleyball, the girl said this place is going to change. get ready.
and i was like huh??
then there was no longer a volleyball net and i wasn't wearing swimwear anymore.
but the beach became a shopping centre!
as in a shopping centre with no roof and sand on all over.

so i was walking aimlessly trying to find my new friends and i walked and walked and somehow ended up outside my house.
and all of a sudden my 'boyfriend' reappeared.
so i said to him hey if we climb to the roof we can slide down!
we climbed to the roof and started sliding down and everytime we slid down we'd bounce back up the roof and slide down all over again.

and halfway while sliding i woke up.
maybe that's why i felt like a sportswoman.
but i woke up feeling very disoriented and the feeling was that of winning a gold medal.
i felt the same way as how i would feel when i win very important matches.
and.. okay.

my dreams are probably an indication of all the garbage that goes through my head.
and how my mind loves to play tricks on me.

actually, i blogged because i wanted to say something.
but when i started blogging, i didn't want to say it anymore.
because, it didn't seem necessary.
some things are better left unsaid.

:)