yesterday we headed down to sicc for an afternoon of squash, tennis and pingpong and it was rather good despite the sun beating down on us.
so doubles for squash was abit uneven in terms of skill but i let eric take most of the balls so i think it was quite okay.
and i learnt how to smash for pingpong :)
although i'd reckon i'll never get any good at it.
and as for tennis, IT WAS WAAAY TOO HOT for it to be enjoyed properly but i enjoyed myself nonetheless.

training yesterday morn was rather exhausting to say the least.
WE RAN!
the route that stella had led us before earlier in the year and only one word to sum up the run we had: unfit :(
courtwork wasn't much good either with mr koh making me run around in circles and i was simply too exhausted to run any faster or hit any harder.
and it felt lousy hearing him tell me i was too slow which is the truth :(
so i think i really have to get my act together and prepare for next year.

been thinking certain things for quite a while now and i thought i was able to shake it off but it seems to come whenever there's contact.
i hate feeling like i don't match up.
and i hate feeling as though i have to be somebody else but yet i know i never can be.
half of me wants to be but the other half doesn't.
does it make sense in a skewed kind of way?