ohhwell.. i think i did something really rash and irrational.. and perhaps it was done in a fit of anger and frustration. plus being influenced by the people around me im starting to have regrets.. but well some said that my gut instinct is mostly always right and whatever i do i have to bear the consequences and never look back.. but right now im pretty unsure..

ohwell. doldrums. i like that word.. my life is in the doldrums. in class today.. i told michelle loh she shouldnt be so sarcastic all the time and it was very unbecoming. that really amused becky.. she said "how can something be becoming or unbecoming? i thought you are becoming something.." then she got really happy and amused and started saying how it shall become her new word.. you are so unbecoming! or whatever .. but anyway i wasnt very amused.

and for cme.. we watched a video called perfect hero. gosh its so inspiring and sad and touching all at the same time.. i couldnt stop crying!! it really made me reflect on my life.. on how lucky we actually are.. and how God has blessed me in so many ways.. and i realised how selfish im being and.. okay im not really making sense but.. i dunno. nevermind.

im not in the mood to speak in fluid writing and ugh whatever. i think il go now. bye.