i am very sad.
because a number of my friends were looking a picture of me last year and they all said "i didn't think you'd put on that much weight til i saw this picture!" i am very sad. to know i've put on weight is one thing. to have people telling you you've put on weight is another. so while waiting for commendation awards to begin, me lyd and lesley were having a discussion on how i can cut down on my appalling eating habits. plus im not training anymore.. so all the more i should cut down right? right. so i've decided. i should just have ONE piece of bread. yeah with cheese or something or tuna.. sounds healthy to me. then i'll have normal recess. normal recess means.. no big bowl of noodles with biscuits and crackers and extra chicken after that. normal recess is an average bowl of noodles and.. that's it. and then they said dont take lunch if i take recess and i was thinking gosh help me how can i NOT have lunch?!!? but i guess when 2 something rolls around.. im really not that hungry i'm just.. greedy. okay so i think i can manage that. and well normal dinner to last me the whole night. ok so like my self help book says.. i should write it down. so here goes.
breakfast: ONE piece of bread with something healthy on it
recess: one normal bowl of noodles or healthier still.. bring my own sandwich or cereal :) or just take fruit.
lunch: NOTHING. hmm okay perhaps a fruit to last me til dinner.
dinner: whatever normal stuff i have for dinner
oh and lyd says i should run three times a week. i am appalled. i have no energy or time to shove on running shoes and open the door, step out and actually run. so i suggested skipping. cause thats not very time consuming and i dont have to step out of the house to do it and plus i quite like skipping. BUT i just found out skipping gives you chunky thighs. and i already have chunky thighs, thanks to being a squash player so what am i to dooo!! al;ksjdf;ladl;dl;ka! im pissed. so anyway maybe i wont exercise but i have to cut down on my food.
why oh why cant i be like my sister? who eats but never puts on weight? why do i have to be short, fat and ugly??? gRr. i wish i could turn back time and magically be thin again. unfortunately thats not possible.. so im gonna start now. God.. give me strength to sustain and be disciplined!!
anyway my efforts at being disciplined through writing all that crap were futile. i'd say i did fairly well in the day.. with the physics and skipping and whathaveyou.. but after dinner i decided to read a little.. and once i started i couldn't stop. so wasted the whole damn night. i shall have another timetable written down when i go offline which is after this.
1. nap til 7 or 7.30 (i am very very tired)
2. dinner (eat less.. i had lunch PLUS food at the reception just now)
3. shower
4. AMATH! i've been neglecting amath for the last four days!!
5. physics tys mcq.. i'll do two topics. I WILL.
6. if i have the time.. go through some chem.
7. SLEEP!
ok that should be good. retro revolution's tmr. my dress is dead awful. sigh. hope tomorrow goes well.
because a number of my friends were looking a picture of me last year and they all said "i didn't think you'd put on that much weight til i saw this picture!" i am very sad. to know i've put on weight is one thing. to have people telling you you've put on weight is another. so while waiting for commendation awards to begin, me lyd and lesley were having a discussion on how i can cut down on my appalling eating habits. plus im not training anymore.. so all the more i should cut down right? right. so i've decided. i should just have ONE piece of bread. yeah with cheese or something or tuna.. sounds healthy to me. then i'll have normal recess. normal recess means.. no big bowl of noodles with biscuits and crackers and extra chicken after that. normal recess is an average bowl of noodles and.. that's it. and then they said dont take lunch if i take recess and i was thinking gosh help me how can i NOT have lunch?!!? but i guess when 2 something rolls around.. im really not that hungry i'm just.. greedy. okay so i think i can manage that. and well normal dinner to last me the whole night. ok so like my self help book says.. i should write it down. so here goes.
breakfast: ONE piece of bread with something healthy on it
recess: one normal bowl of noodles or healthier still.. bring my own sandwich or cereal :) or just take fruit.
lunch: NOTHING. hmm okay perhaps a fruit to last me til dinner.
dinner: whatever normal stuff i have for dinner
oh and lyd says i should run three times a week. i am appalled. i have no energy or time to shove on running shoes and open the door, step out and actually run. so i suggested skipping. cause thats not very time consuming and i dont have to step out of the house to do it and plus i quite like skipping. BUT i just found out skipping gives you chunky thighs. and i already have chunky thighs, thanks to being a squash player so what am i to dooo!! al;ksjdf;ladl;dl;ka! im pissed. so anyway maybe i wont exercise but i have to cut down on my food.
why oh why cant i be like my sister? who eats but never puts on weight? why do i have to be short, fat and ugly??? gRr. i wish i could turn back time and magically be thin again. unfortunately thats not possible.. so im gonna start now. God.. give me strength to sustain and be disciplined!!
anyway my efforts at being disciplined through writing all that crap were futile. i'd say i did fairly well in the day.. with the physics and skipping and whathaveyou.. but after dinner i decided to read a little.. and once i started i couldn't stop. so wasted the whole damn night. i shall have another timetable written down when i go offline which is after this.
1. nap til 7 or 7.30 (i am very very tired)
2. dinner (eat less.. i had lunch PLUS food at the reception just now)
3. shower
4. AMATH! i've been neglecting amath for the last four days!!
5. physics tys mcq.. i'll do two topics. I WILL.
6. if i have the time.. go through some chem.
7. SLEEP!
ok that should be good. retro revolution's tmr. my dress is dead awful. sigh. hope tomorrow goes well.
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