hmm. yes im back again.
in a total span of.. hmm.. an hour and a half.. i've blogged TWICE.

yes mock me again.
my esteem's at an all time low.
read some of my older (that meaning couple of days ago) insane gushy posts.
ok i think i sound dumb.
like dohh dumbERRR than usual.
now i realise why there's a show called dumb and dumber. cos there are people out there - like me for an instance - who are dumber than dumb.
which results in dumber. or dumberer. or dumberest if u like.
very simple equation.
dumb + dumb = dumbER.

hoho. guess i shouldnt be passing maths ayee?
anyway if i shall gush.. i shall gush in my HEART. not here.
unless i cant control that sudden spurt of emotion.

p.s. one more note. dont judge me preeeaasee?
i mean becky saying, "shumin.. you're so strange!" and she gives her typical you-are-so-strange looks and then she adds "you blog so many times!" then shoots me another you-are-so-strange-have-you-got-nothing-better-to-do look.
its very discouraging. haha becky. no offense. but YES!! you did say that today!

evidently. i dont have anything better to do.
so.. hmm.
my blog. a result of my boredom.
RAAAWWR.

sighh. MUST be the exam stress LAH!
anyway again. i say it AGAIN. i REPEAT.
dont mock me please :(

haha okay michelle. mock me man. so im not intelligent. i just say controversial things.

and lesley.. ur too profound for me. hmm anyway i wasnt saying that they should go out of their way to implement more rules and stuff.. but i just think all the complaining and bitching about the school and all that was well.. overdone in that sense. besides.. loads of things are done through the "self" if u know what i mean. like its up to us whether we can accept it or not.. its just that sometimes we choose not to. and well at the same time its up to the teachers.. the systems to do what they like. so basically im just asking everyone to self reflect.. but teachers dont read this so.. nevermind.
and one more thing.. dont like what that much?

aiiyah. i just get bored with my layouts easily. hehehe.
anyhooz. tummy hurts. alright gotta go finish up the squash page for sch mag. baaah.

at becky's house now..
just watched my tutor friend..
whee.. becky and ta hate it.
but joan likes it! yay!
kwon sang wooooo!

damn damn damn damn cute sia!!!!!!!!!!
-joan

haha anywaays.. being lame. alrightey gotta go now.. i repeat.
kwon sang woo!!

ok very plain green layout.
but green's my favourite colour.
heheh.

"men need the stamina.."
" so take Ostrich Food Corps!"

or something like that. haha that came from Oh, Happy Days. its not that good. cheap humour but the storyline and sequence is kinda disjointed. my sassy girl and tutor friend still has to be the best.

but watching oh happy days does have its advantages.
i never knew haemhorroid was just some anal growth.
doesnt it sound like something waaay more serious? i mean brain haemhorrage is something serious. so i figured haemhorroid has to be something equally bad.
but nooo. its anal growth which makes you bleed when you shit.
according to my dad.. its quite common.

hmm. getting way out of my depth here. anyway next on my list. make it big. if my aunt wont get it for me.. i'll get it myself!
oh right. and i wanna get into the sun too.. but thats a drama serial. gotta be more expensive. gotta coax my mother or aunt to get it. whoopee doo. kwon sang woo!

hmm. deus machina is coming out in august next yr.. or more likely november or smth like that. thats sad. i really wanna catch that one. and some other show. with kwon sang woo inside. its some bruce lee like thingey.. doesnt sound too good but well for the sake of kwon sang woo i'll watch it! baah. but deus machina sounds good. and its coming out so late!!

this is a very useless entry.
no one is going to sign the guestbook.
people only sign my guestbook when i say smth with the teeny weeniest tinge of intelligence. which is evidently not in this entry.
haha. sign the guestbook anyway.
PLEAAAASE!
it makes me feel READ. haha.
bah.
told you this entry was useless.

well glad that my last err.. entry made some impact.
and michelle: oh yeah i know what u mean about the rules and all.. but i just meant that i dont think the rules warrants such an overwhelming response.. u know what i mean? i just think the complaining and such is overdoing it laa..

hmm and fiona.. well jst read ur blog and i cant say i fully comprehend what you're feeling and all.. but you'll always have a friend in me okay? take care alright..

ok and whoever the dot is.. erm no i know who DOT is.. thats dorothy.. but the one who signed off as one dot.. u know '.' yeah.. well uhh dont really know what ur sorry for but i'll accept it anyway.. :D

hmm anyway.. today's a fairly ok day. havent been able to get out of my korean vcd mania yet. no.. i didnt watch my tutor friend again but i made my auntie buy "oh, happy days" and i really really wanted "make it big" (though i heard it sucks) cos kwon sang woo was inside but my auntie refused absolutely refused cos she heard it sucks :( hmm.. and im feeling very sad.. cos my sassy girl is in my old computer which is unplugged and so is volcano high unless i deleted that already. SIGHH.

listening to i believe has great effects on my tear ducts. and heartstrings. i know i sound like a freak ass but.. arghh u just have to listen to the song to know what i meaaaan! anyway.. here's the lyrics translated into english. its weird.. but well :) until i learn how to put music up (will anyone care to teach me?!?!?).. you'll hafta bear with weird lyrics..

ok i decided not to post the lyrics up cos the lyrics are PISSING ME OFF. id unno its a great song.. but the lyrics are too sappy for my liking. but anyway.. the song is in korean so i'll leave it as that :D and that way i'll continue loving it.

haha. to all the sec4s out there.. continue studying hard okay?

oh and i know sihua doesnt read this.. but i've been meaning to say some stuff to her for some time..
si: thanks for being the greatest vice-captain ever. i think you'll be a fantastic captain.. much much better than i ever was.. and just keep the mgsquash flame burning okay? do ur job captain!! i'll be back to visit u all.. and cheer u all on :)

didnt go online for.. well sometime.
yes.. longest day on thursday. i had fun but yet i didnt. ironic isnt it. longest day is supposed to be the most fun, the most exhilarating day you had in school. not just because u had fun the day itself, but because of all the memories conjured and the hard realisation that this is the last.. the really last time you go crazy and bond and sing retarded campfire songs in mgs.

i was totally prepared to have fun. to a certain extent i can say i had heaps of fun.. but there was this nagging cold and tense atmosphere in my class it really dimmed my spirits more than i would like to say.

it really scares me that my ten years in mg is coming to a close. i was jst thinking today (ok well technically its saturday but assuming its still friday) about all the times i've spent in mg. from primary1 where i puked on this first day of school and how elated i was to find out alina and judy were in mgs too. and the first friend i made (besides alina and judy) who was griselda who offered me candy. on the first day of primary one!

and all the times after that.. progressing through primary school.. meeting all the people that changed my life. well of course there were the hard times too. the backstabbing, the bitching, the loss of friends. there were also all the crazy embarrassing times (which inevitably happen when you're younger .. yes).

and going on to secondary school. how i really believed things were gonna change as i moved on. had the time of my life in 1B2.. went on to 2I and had another unbelievable time. and of course as sec3 and 4 came, people changed, i changed and my perspective on people and life changed as well. which, sad to say, took a little spark out of my life. but sec3 and 4 have been my biggest growing periods where i've learnt so much, matured my point of view.

and not forgetting squash which has played such a huge part in my mgs life. i'll never forget the team, the inspiration, the love, the hate, the sweat and all the feelings i cant fully describe. it scares me that i have almost left this team. that in a matter of weeks (well actually im out already.. but TECHNICALLY im still in) mg squash is going to be tangibly out of my life.

i admit that mgs has changed alot. changed in more ways than one. theres the system and the rules that have built up resentment and hate, but more importantly, the people. the students, the teachers, the soul of mgs.
i know some rules are completely unnecessary and superfluous, but havent you wondered why some rules that are formed totally affect the students?
because the mgs spirit is fading. the mgs temperament, the mgs attitude is fading.
its because mgs is not what it used to be and when harsher measures are implemented to take such a degradation at hand, the students hate it and they claim they hate mgs.
but when i really think about it.. i dont think the rules are that bad. are we so inflexible that we cannot adapt to such a change?

i hate the way students run mgs down. i hate it when people say they cant wait to get out. i think its selfish. mgs does have its shortcomings, just like any other school. but i think all the strengths and weaknesses of mgs make who i am. at the same time who we are makes the school.

so does it help if we run the school down? arent we tearing the school down when we verbally ruin it? sometimes i think it would really help if we took a more positive attitude towards mgs. to build the school up once again.

do we profess we hate mgs when we play for the school? whatever sport, cca we're in, do we hate the school when we play? so why should we run it down when we're not in play but support it when we play? we despise other schools, we wanna beat them flat when we compete. but outside our sport, we verbally degrade the school.

i will always remember the passion and the heat of supporting mgs. whenever i think i'm on the verge of claiming it sucks.. i always remember what it feels like to have the mgs spirit overwhelm me when i play. when i see my team together. and of course when i remember all my friends.. some of the teachers.. the flag.. the sack-like (but very comfy) uniform.

i cant fully express what i feel because mgs is such a great part of my life. it has created so many faces in me. i know this entry is long and disorganised and plenty of people arent going to be happy.. but
in my heart mgs will always be the best school in all history.


mgs squash bdiv 2003

i am tired.
went shopping with my mother and aunts for six hrs.
hmm. it was ok got 3 tops but hmm yeah.

i'm really very tired. but tonight is the night i start to study.
tmr is longest day. i still dont know how to sing yellow submarine.

anyway.. im tired. oh. i said that three times.

anyway its PICTURE TIME! yes slam me. but.. :D




checkout those muscles!! wheee!


for closer check on the abs hahahaha :D

yesyes. call me crazy. BAAH!

oh by the way..
i think the whole layout comes out less crooked if u open up the favourites bar at the side.
or anything of that sort.

i tried it on my computer. if i dont have the favourites toolbar at the side..
gosh everything's slanted and.. well slanted.

ok thats my new boring gray layout.
yes.. decided to make something simpler. ok most of my layouts are darn simple cos i cant make anything complicated cos i suck.

yesyes. anyway i realised that on different computer screens the stuff comes out funny.
so if ur computer screen obviously isnt identical to mine..
well its gonna look funny
and im sorry.

watched turn left turn right today with fiona michloh and christine
expected it to be better. hmm. ohwell then met eric for dinner.
nothing much really..

and fiona doesnt think kwon sang woo is good looking!!
hmm admittedly he isnt great looking but i think charm and charisma plays such a huge role cos.. ahhh!
yes everyone's gonna slam me now.
cos im being so annoying.
a-nnoy-ing.

had a long talk with my mother today.. or rather she talked to me today. about my life.. my obviously disastrous prelim grades.. and my future grades. its really made me wonder what exactly do i want to do with myself. what are my goals. i've always prided myself on being ambitious and dreams and goals to work towards. but lately i realised it's empty. i'm not desiring my past ambitions as greatly as before and dreams and goals just seem to be fading. i dont mean fading because of something that happened or stuff like that. but fading into the background. its just disappearing.. evaporating (must be the PHYSICS) but well smth like that.

i'd better start thinking about what i want to do with my life.
i'm not getting any younger.
BAH.

anyway.. KWON SANG WOO!!

OH YES OH YES OH YES!
I GOT IT IN!
YES YES YES!
ahhh.. look look! THATS KWON SANG WOO!
AHHHHHHHHHHH!

shit. sound like sucha bimb. but haha ohwell :D:D:D:D!!
WHEEEE!
:)

anyway. better stop mooning and get serious. olevels coming soon!

oh crap
i wanna know how u put pics into blogger..

YAAAAAAAAAAY! prelims are over!! wheee!
hmm. but doesnt really feel like exams are over.
anyway dogggtired.
hardly slept last night. had emath paper two and physics papers today.
urghh major major mind grinding.

anyways had long lunch with velda and lindy and mich. then walked ard and went home.
HOHO! i can watch my tutor friend agaaaaaaain!
KWON SANG WOOOOO!
ok nevermind.
must be post-exam brightness. haha!

i should stop posting so many times a day.
i look like i have nothing better to do.
which is true.
HAH!

i feel like saying something but i dont know what to say.
hmm.. maybe i'll post again later.
when i think of smth to say :D HEHEHHEHE.

nipped this off michelle and sara.. haha that funny kabalarian site thingey.. anyway wow! its bloody accurate!

Brief Analysis

Although your first name of Shumin has created an expressive, fun-loving nature, it has not produced the qualities necessary for a full and complete life. You have always been a happy person, and, desiring to see others happy as well, you strive to inspire others, which you do most effectively through an engaging sense of humour. You are fond of surprises and are quick to respond to spontaneous invitations which promise a good time, particularly when they relieve you of a boring task. Your dislike for monotony and routine, often means that you do not finish the things you start. A natural rhythm, a sense of colour harmony, and creative ability contribute to a flair for composition and artistic and musical expression. Expression comes easily to you; in fact, you should learn to control it and discipline your expression. You are not practical where money matters are concerned, your theory being that money is there to be spent. You are kind and generous, and will fill a need when you see it; at times, others take advantage of your generosity. The most serious drawback of the influence of this name is in the strong emotional feelings that it produces, which are difficult to control and create lack of stability in your thinking or in your affairs.

u know what.. it is so damn accurate! gosh. even the health one. read this!

Health Weaknesses for the name of: Shumin

A craving for sweet foods could cause skin conditions or liver problems. You would find it difficult to control your desires and could over-indulge in your pleasures.

oh except the skin conditions one.. i think. i dunno dont think my skin is THAT bad!! and the liver one i hope not. hmm.. but the over indulge.. woww..

argh!! i didnt get to finish my lit essay! i think they give us way too little time for lit. i duno dont u think its insane?

they give u 2 hrs and 50 minutes to finish three questions with a few gazillion parts to them and they expect each part to be nice and fat and long with neat, legible handwriting. haha. how funny. seriously. i'd rather do lit with a computer. my hand is rotting. ugh. and i have no hope for prelims.

sigh. i think there was a period of time in primary school when schoolwork never bothered me. my grades were rather good and i didnt even get all that much studying done. but secondary school's been awful. everything's going down. grades.. concentration span.. bah whatever. i cant even be bothered to write properly i'm too upset!

hmm.. anyway cheeers! my guestbook's getting more active! haha hope everyone out there is doing okay.. and ta.. what about monday?

sigh. hope everything works out for the best for everyone's prelims i cant be bothered to write anything more. bloody blog.

chem. die. fail.

amath. praying for a miracle. that somehow my answers will turn right.
actually speaking of which. i'm praying for a miracle for chem too. sigh. hope tmr's amath will turn out good.

and lit! oh gosh lit.. i need my a1 real BAD! waaaaaaah.
ok i'm off for my date with julius caesar and all the itsy bitsy characters in my short stories. toodles!

mich: eaaarly?! we have physics.. feeeeeejiiics remember!! hmm ok lets go out on monday! but until then.. study hard daahling!

by the way.. thats my new layout! haha might change it soon..
i need ideas!

i'm freaked for chem.
my chem really really sucks.
and i cant remember a thing. i'm not even halfway through. does it make me feel better that i still have most of the afternoon and the whole night?

amath is tomorrow. tomorrow probably predicts gloom and doom. ahhhh!

i'm having fun taking pictures. i'm thinking of taking up photography. i even joined deviantART and i post all my pics up. haha. laaame. my first two posts were really bad but i think i'm getting better.

anyway should be concentrating on my work yea.. dear fiona.. dont worry.. i dont really know how bio went but i'm sure u did fine :) all the best for chem okay? dont be angry anymore!! chinup!

hope everything is going well for all of you.. work hard!

thank God. really. really really got to thank God for being with me during the prelims. i know i didnt put in enough effort and i was panicking my pants off cos of ss and geog and He has really blessed me. yeah.. well i wont do fantastically of course.. because you reap what u sow but im sure i'll.. well.. i'll pass. hmm.. but well prelims isnt over yet.. so i shud just continue to study hard have faith.. blahblah..

ta: i signed her guestbook! haha yeah really reminds me of the good ol p5 days. you me steph sarah and daph gotta go out sometime. hmm wonder if it will be awkward.

and deaarr fiona.. u dont have a guestbook so i gotta post whatever i wanna say here! hmm.. why're u so angry this time.. dont be angry fifi dear.. all the best for bio tomorrow!

and lesley.. all the best for bio tmr! chin up girl!

im jay chouing again now. haha. sorry i'm addicted. i've been eating cornettos, chips and kinder bueno everyday. i dont know.. stress makes my stomach hurt. was beating my brains out studying geog yesterday and despite having a big dinner.. my stomach started to hurt and ifelt a little hungry so yeah well i ate.

and anyway yes another boring blog entry. why am i so boring? i'm so boring i bore myself. i hate being boring. well who likes being boring.
bored.
boring.
boringEST.
i am the boringEST.

gaah. what wonderfuller enggrrrish. anyway i realised something. i say 'well' too much. everything's like well.. and ohwell.. and hmm i'm.. well..boring? haha nevermiiiind. shud stop rubbishing.

anyway advertising time!!
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i luuuuuuurve it to bits. luuuuuurvee it. haha. ahh nevermind. im embarrassing myself. ok byebye.
remember to watch ahh!

oh i realised in my fit of anger i forgot to add how my papers today went.

english was fine. summary a little screwed cos i realised i forgot to put in three points and rushed to add it in only to find out i had two extra words when they said times up so i hastily cancelled unnecessary random words. grr. disgusting.

SS was fine too. did sustaining development. but my essay lacked analytical power. haha not like my preprelim essay. i like that one. i got full marks!!! but dont think il be getting anything close to full marks for this one. did a stupid thing. shud have done source based first. anyway source based was bad. grr. ok thats it for today. off to study and again i repeat.

I AM ANGRY.

brain saturation. majorly. ok anyway wasted the whole bloody day cos i was so tired so after studying environmental degradation i went to sleep. zZz.

anyway.. reading michelle's blog is DEAD GOOD. didnt know that section A only tested chaps 1 and 2 so ok i shall make sure i'll study that real well. thats the agriculture shit right? hmm.. SIGHSIGHSIGH.

i dont have all of yylim's notes so i bought the textbook that she uses and i typed out all my notes and AHHH! shiiiiiit. is two and a half hrs enough for me to finish agriculture (it has damn alot.. plantation.. wetrice.. agro.. grrgGrr!) development tourism.. blahblahblah im going craaaaazy!! hope its enough. and i gotta sleep early tonight cos tmr's MATH! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! my math sucks. oh remind to go thru some of the emath formulas. SHIIIIIT LAAARRRRRRH! shud have studied earlierr..

I AM ANGRY. GRR. ANGRRRRRRY.

oh and fionaa.. work hard for geog kaaae! wanna see u get a1 and blahblah naah dont giveup. ur bio's good. confidence my friend.

and i repeat. I AM ANGRY. sigh. okay i shall study now. im stressed. sob.

special mention must go out to lesley, ta and fiona cause they sign my guestbook the most often :)

anyway today is the last and final day for cramming so good luck to everybody. of all days i'm cramping up today ughugh. but still. got to study. yes. social studies. waheey.

nevermind.. stress makes me blog senseless things. anyhooz.. i think i'd better study.
bye bye now.

oh and which do u think is more effective? mind mapping or typing out my points? cause i think mind mapping is clearer but im too lazy to draw and typing's faster and err yar. AIIYAAH i dunno laaaah. see all my singlish coming out. singgrrish. singularish. haha nevermind. tmr's english compre by the way. ahh! speak good english! write good english. bahbah BYE.

Aladdin!


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okaaaay. i liked the movie very much.. BUTBUT lying and cheating?!! and stealing shows?! heelloo! excuseme?! pLEEEASE?! makes me sound so ambitious and unscrupulous and what a terrible result!

hmm but like aladdin :)

TWO MORE DAYS TO PRELIMS.
baah!

lesley: huh? i only went once! on wednesday.. u know i wrote one entry at 4am.. and i said i was going for chem in three hours? then i wrote again at 11pm saying i WENT for chem.. haha yesyes.. YES! sign the guestbook more often! oh yarhh.. whats ur postscript?

another boring day.. can feel the first pangs of pms. hope it stays a slight pang and not an overwhelming force that sends me over the edge of sanity. yes.. i need to keep my mind sound. after all.. i have to study! the mood swings kept me irritable most of the day so i spent quite a portion of it sleeping. managed to squeeze in one chap of social studies and couple of questions of amath. realised im awful at integration of areas. so far i think i've only gotten TWO questions right since i learnt that topic.

gonna try and blog less chunky stuff. its not blog-like according to ta. hmm blog-like. i wonder.

hmm.. jay chou's my best study partner :D
yes.. here's a good tip.
if you need music but yet you want 100% concentration for studying (note the irony..), listen to chinese songs. or korean or jap or whatever.. err french? yes anything as long as its not in a language you favour or you're strong in? why? because when you listen to songs that you actually understand.. while you're studying, the lyrics will continually interrupt your train of thoughts. believe me. especially if its a song you like. you'll subconsciously stop and sing your favourite song or whatever. but if its a chinese/korean/jap song that you like.. you're just appreciating the music as an accompaniment as an aid to tick your mind with not much clue or awareness of what they're actually singing. REALLY! trust me!

and speaking of such songs.. i think listening to such songs helps me appreciate melodies of songs better. i dunno. for english songs, the lyrics are pretty important to me. i can like a song for its lyrics even if it has a mediocre (to me that is..) melody. and if a song has a great melody but nasty lyrics, it puts me off quite abit. so listening to korean/jap/chinese songs actually heighten my awareness and appreciation of melodies.

and PLUS..PLUS.. nowadays everyone seems so angmoh-ified. yeah.. you know.. when i was couple of years younger i would totally diss chinese songs and listen purely to english songs because it was 'cool' and stuff. and you know how most people go through a stage in their lives of wanting to be the white race? but well.. honestly, now i like being chinese. i'm really proud to be chinese. and i'm starting to appreciate the langauge so much better.

hmm i think everyone should be proud of their own race. that's who we are.. that's what we're born to be. and.. i'm getting veryvery out of my depth here.. but yes. haha.. my blog has no sense of proportion or organisation. i drift from topic to topic but ahhwell.. as long as i dont do it for exams. its alright. :D

okaay.. back to the books. i shall do CHEM now :)

i am really tired. measly one hr of sleep.
went for chem. almost didnt.
got my hair cut. well not much.. trimmed more like. emath tuition. tv. blahblaah.
i shall do some work now and get my study juices going.

oh.. thanks lesley for the sign! :D

what am i doing online at this unearthly hour? sigh.. can't sleep. very very strange, considering i only napped for two hrs this afternoon which is alright compared to my usual dosage of four hours. but here i am with my eyes wide open, mind up and ticking and well.. fingers err exercising :) in approximately 3 hours.. i have to get up and go to school for miss goh's question and answer remedial.

gaaah! yesterday (well it is close to 4 in the morn) was another wasted day. i managed to do one chap of ss.. two of egeog and i did organic chem except for macromolecules. yes.. and i spent my non studying hours of the afternoon watching bend it like beckham and sleeping.

talking about my day is boring. what exactly is the reason for blogging? at a subconscious level i think i like to write what i've done so i can feel accomplished/proud/dejected/blahblah but when i actually read it.. or read other's.. its just dead boring. i mean at a certain level its interesting and different, but yet ultimately, its mundane and ordinary and atypical. well of course at this point of time.. our blogs are basically a competition (??) of how much work we've done. or perhaps its a guilt-o-meter. like oh-look-she's-done-heaps-i'd-better-start-slogging kinda thing.

so back to my question.. what is the reason for blogging? hmm.. a medium for lame people like me to voice out issues? a dartboard for people to hurl views/insults/judgements on me? (when i say that.. i mean i writing smth and people who pass judgement thru the guestbook or smth) or simply a mean for release? i dont know.. all i know is.. i like typing :) oh and well.. err talking. basically.. i think i prefer typing to talking. there's so much more you can say when you type. you can pause, think, and gather your thoughts. but talking.. its hard. people chemistry is very important when it comes to talking.. but yet typing chemistry (err..) is somehow easier to cultivate?

i am spouting nonsense now.. yesyes i know!! it must be lack of sleep. but you know what? i'm not tired yett! yes and i like typing. in primary 4 i told my mother i would be an excellent secretary cos i could type so fast.. 85wordsperminute mummy! almost all correct! imagine.. a ten year old actually telling her mother THAT! goshh.. it embarrasses me just thinking about it. speaking about typing.. im making my sister learn the proper way of typing. cause im really quite worried that she cant find a job plainly cause she types with two fingers?!?! i mean.. how can people hire her seeing her rate of productivity typing with TWO fingers?! and she has to constantly refer to the keyboard to find her letters. what will happen to her?! esp in a society where its all about increased rates of productivity.. efficiency.. aghhh! it must be overdose of social studies and egeog i tell youuu! all the stupid production costs thingieees rolling round in my brain.

ohwell.. maybe i shud get some sleep now. after all.. i have to see miss goh.. in.. four hours. how wonderful..

fiona: noo! yesterday was a complete wasted day! ugh! marathon 4hr physics tuition where i totally wasted my time cos i forgot to do my paper.. arghh. then went home and watched tv.. ate.. blahblah.. did socialstudies and oh.. watched tv! whee! shit fifz.. today MUST be concentration day. cos i have the whole day to waste so might as well be productive and ur blog scares me. its so full of.. geography.

and

ta: STUDY HAAAAARD! ok i'll pop by after prelims to see ur beeyouuteeeful room :)

and ERRRIIC! if ur reading this like you said you would.. PLEASE SIGN THE GUESTBOOK! if u didnt sign it.. u obviously didnt read this!! grRr.

ok anyway. i shall write my plan for today. shall be incredibly focused (or is it focussed?? think double s is american right?) and pan out my day's plan.
1. do emath (ok i did abt 19 questions this morn..)
2. two chaps of socialstudies
3. three chaps of egeog (hope i can absorb all the stupid industries and whathaveyou..)
4. squeeze in one chem mcq?
5. squeeze in one physics mcq
6. IF POSSIBLE.. my stnicks amath paper

ughh! but i gotta stop at 11!! cos at 1045 there's bright girl's success and at 11 there's young papa and i'll have to switch the channels back and forth and AHHH! remind me to be incredibly focused this afternoon and get MAXIMUM done. i sound like a moron i sound like a moron i sound like a moron. UGH. studddyyyyyy. stud-y.

haii.. everybody gogogo! just mug a lil while moree! then do ur best for prelims.. then rest. then mug agaaaain! GOODLUCK EVERYBODYYYYY! ugh im lame.

today is sunday. tmr marks the official starting of the september holidays aka SIS (Super Intensive Study). but to cover my bases.. i started today :) did one chapter of SS and two chaps of geog elective. hmm.. shall do physics and math tonight.

things are pretty tense around the house though im feeling pretty good.

its a hothot day. the kind of weather i detest. its hot and humid. i can practically feel the heat rising from the ground. i dont really like aircon.. so i switch on the fan. and even with the fan blowing directly at me, i can still feel the heat emanating from the atmosphere. ugh.

ohwell.. i have flipped through my textbooks and if i cover 2 SS chaps and 3 geog elective chaps a day.. i shud be able to finish my syllabus by friday. wish me luck! oh plus i hafta squeeze in chem and physics and math.. goshhh.

but considering im feeling pretty good and energetic.. this is GOOD. STRENGTH to study. hope i can sustain the concentration span though. i kinda digressed from my studying a few dozen times. once to talk to my sis.. once to talk to my mother.. once to talk to my sis and mother.. once to watch tv.. once to eat (sausage roll and cheddar cheese chips) and well i think once more to talk to my aunt.. but ahh cant really remember. doesnt matter anyway.

feeling bored and restless now. its the heat i tell you. making me feel all languid and drowsy.. but yet its too hot to actually fall asleep comfortably. sigh im really bored blabbering on and on about inane stuff. boring blog.

oh realised that blogging cuts of human and verbal communication. everytime i'm about to lament something to someone.. they go "oh i know.. i read your blog. dont need to tell me." and i feel so abruptly cut off and lost and well.. maybe i shudn say so much in my blog. then i'll have something to talk about. but if i dont write it in my blog.. in many weeks/months/years to come.. i wont remember it!!! ARGH! complications.. complications..

anyway i shud probably catch a short nap before dinner.. to everyone who's struggling with their books.. STRUGGLE ON! everyone else is like you :)

its over.. OVER. chem prac was so darn horrible. stupid phenolphthalein. stupid contaminated chemicals. i titrated as carefully as i could.. four times.. til all the solution was gone. and what do i get? the highest reading of the lot. 29.7 when the average is 27.3. didnt have enough time so i left a 3 mark page blank. its over..

ohwell.. was too lazy to blog yesterday. english yesterday was alright. the question said "..write a letter to your principal to tell her.." and i wrote To: Mr John Lee.. Dear Sir.. hmm says alot about my intelligence eh?

i've been eating damn alot lately.. ugh cant seem to control my appetite. i dunno.. argh. think il just eat.. and eat.. and lose weight after o's. or prelims. ugh whatever. bad day.

argh! pheejiics. IS OVER. and i mean that on an unhappy note. as in.. i am d e a d. dead. lousy prac. ughh shall not even go into it. screwed up.

oh btw.. i have to add this. KAREN IS TEXTTWIST PRO! never met anyone like that man. haha.. karen is sooo good at it i am SHOCKED. haha. retard. okay..

sigh. shall go read my hana yori dango fanfics to cheer me up. dont mock me just because i read hana yori dango fanfics. some are pretty nice. really.

hopefully tmr's english essay goes better. I NEED MY A1 for ENGLISH!!! engrrish. grr.

ruined plan. i had lunch today. in preparation for my supposedly lunch-less day, i had a large recess. however when school ended.. i had an apple. that was all i intended to have. then i trooped over to coro to photocopy my chem stuff and the lady said it would take halfanhour so during that halfanhour i bought a chicken burger and fries and ARGHH!!

i realised my math is very bad. i do my tuition homework but yet my math is bad. help. i need an a1 for math SO BAD. heard that lit prelim papers arent gonna be easy. and my lit grades are always hovering around a low a1 high a2 and i've even dropped to as low as a b3 before! chem.. *gulp*.. gotta buckerrrup! and physics.. errwell.. that i shall not even think about. but hmm heard prac and mcq isnt gonna be all that difficult so maybe i'd better practise and study so i can get a presentable grade and it MIGHT just save me. and english i've just GOT to do well! i did alright for oral prelims.. not as well as i'd like to do but not too bad? so i need an excellent essay and compre grade. why do grades have to be so IMPORTANT?!?!?!?!

hmm. on a lighter note.. vol35 for hana yori dango is out!! i cant wait to pop by kino and snag my copy! wheeee!

ok i sound like a total moron. argh. must be stress. yes. but well today i'm in a much much better mood than say.. the last two days. hmm lets just say i've got some things cleared up in my head and i now know who's in control of my life. and that's God. i believe He'll guide me through these prelims/olevels, 2weeks of SIS (super intensive study.. borrowed that from eric. heh) and yes. so the paragraph on worrying about my grades is now void. haha.. yes. i guess its alright to grouse and gripe on these little things to kick our behinds and get us going. but no.. i dont really mean REAL REAL worrying. uhh.. i dont make much sense do i? well nevermind.. i'm a little high. must be the chicken burger and fries.

mrs cheng told fiona, christine and me today, that we should really start carving and picking our character types for our essays. to have a vague model of what our character, our human element is gonna be like in our essays. i havent really picked anyone yet.. but i guess if i had to, i'll pick my mother. she's one colourful character. yes.. i cant explain it. she makes me mad, she makes me sad, she makes me glad. haha. good rhyming eh? allright that was lame.. but u get my drift. she's the only one who creates such a maelstrom of emotions in me. and my father too i guess. he's quite a character too. not quite as colourful as my mother (who has so many aspects of her it drives me nuts), but he has a more solid personality although he does surprise me quite abit. haha. i'd say my sister is a pretty good example too. but.. maybe they're just easy to write about because i KNOW them. fiona has planned hers too. hers are rather well planned. haha.. she chose _____ and ______ and ______ and ______. no names mentioned but we all know who :D

weeell. okay here's a little encouragement here. its a little chunky.. but yeaps. one of my favourite verses.
Matthew 6:31-31 "So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagains run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

yup so even with all the exams and troubles coming up.. dont worry! God will take care of them. well like i said.. Do your best and God will do the rest. cliched.. but true :)

there are so many things i want to say but i cant express myself right now.
whassat thing called.. writers block? not exactly but i'm pretty high-strung right now. there are so many things i need to say, that i need to sort in my head, that i need to DO.. but yet i cant. dont ask me why.

i am highstrung. yes. so many things i need to review and reflect. academically, physically, emotionally and spiritually. i'd say i'm going through a spiritual haze right now. spirit is willing but body is weak. on sunday we had this real powerful speaker who came to speak to us.. i was afraid to commit, let God use me. but yet i know there's this void that only God can fill. but i'm too cowardly to let Him use me as an instrument for Him. i cant seem to aptly describe how i'm feeling right now. especially religious issues. i feel as though i'm saying something wrong or pretentious.. and i can't correctly read my thoughts.

prelims in two weeks. what exactly am i doing? nothing. i dont know.

yipee. its out.
and no it has nothing to do with villagephotos. as in.. i didnt USE villagephotos. HOORAAAAAY!

michelle: but michellee.. when i went to villagephotos and i clicked on my photo file.. well the FIRST pic i used worked anyway.. then i changed it.. and when i clicked the file.. it said file could not be located so maybe its villagephotos and not me??!

and.. ta: im sorry. uhhm.. then maybe its fiona? ohwell sorry ta!!

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